woops guess who got introspective again
- I feel like we're both struggling right now, and we're doling out to one another what we need for ourselves. I need patience, because I'm really struggling to keep it together anymore. I think you need someone to tell you what to do because you feel lost right now. We don't know what the future's going to look like, and I think you feel really guilty about that. And I'll be honest, there is a part of me that's growing resentful. I feel like I'm alone in so many ways. I think it's why I'm so hesitant to fully accept your friends, I don't have to worry about walking away from a whole friend group if I don't join it in the first place. I'm scared to commit. I want to. I know I'll regret not trying everything, but I also feel like I have tried everything.
- I am an addict. It's my responsibility to take the paths to fix it for myself. I can't rely on Jay for literally everything. There has to be boundaries and a level of self-sufficiency or you actually do fall out of practice.
- If I choose to continue my life as is, my shame will be my Sisyphussian boulder. I will never know true rest or peace again.